Sunday, April 29, 2012

Control Freaks

I don understand why some peoples like to control their partner so tight? Day and night calling texting asking where they are and who are they with, what the hell.... It's worst than parents.

Some of them even kept logging in their partner's FB account and check. Check their phone. Seriously, even if their partner give u their password account, they should not miss used it. Control freaks always thought what they did was right and their reason is because they love their partner too much but on their partner's side, they felt like they been guarded and gasping for air. This does not do any good to any relationship, it just created a distance between each other.

Yes, I understand why control freaks did all these because they care but it's too much. Nobody can stand these kind of treatment.


Saturday, April 28, 2012

Wish or Want

Earlier, I just wished I could spend some time with you before everything tumbles down. I never thought what will it be in the future, I'm just happy with the way we are. Teasing each other around and being happy together, that's all in my mind. I could not understand why I could just smile or laugh like a fool by just looking at you. I just love the current me, thanks to you.

After few days, I felt I'm being more selfish. I don want to wish anymore, I want you all myself. I want to be that girl. I really want you so much but I just can't tell you that because I know if I start that topic, either I would lose you forever or my wish will be granted. I can't afford to lose you anymore after so many times. So I just kept everything to myself. 



Wednesday, April 25, 2012

There's a lot of things I'm afraid of.
Especially the truth, I never wanted to know what's the truth because I'm afraid I can't handle it.

So I always run away from it and put it behind me like I never heard of it before. I felt I'm much more happier when I live in lies. I wished I could live in my dreams where everything is just in the way I wanted.

For now, I want to have someone that I love and not just because he love me and care me a lot. :)


Friday, April 20, 2012

1st Love

I guess to everyone, our 1st love is the most memorable. In your mind, you will be thinking of getting married to him/her and happily after. He's the prince, she's the princess. You would do anything but at the end, tragic happens.

I guess there is only 10% of couples end up being together with their 1st love forever. It's really tough.

You won't able to have the same feeling with the 2nd or 3rd ones. It's just different. Out of sudden, you meet someone that gave u that same 1st miracle butterflies in you and I guess he/she will be the one.

Love is unpredictable, it comes and goes like the wind's direction. To me, if the couple is destined to be together, at the end they will be. :)

What if God lets you choose who you want to marry to, what type he/she would be? or you rather it be a surprise to you?


Wednesday, April 18, 2012

20th Burst Day

I was wondering when should I blog about my day *all my besties have blog about it except me*,
since I have time now, why not. :)
On that morning, I was deciding should I go cute or mature? At last I choosed mature cause I'm 20 already!! But I still act like a kiddo. :P
Yesh!! I cut my hair again and I have decided to stay with these hair style cause I love it :D

Outfit of the day

I became the driver of the day because all of them don have transport so I took them all around Cheras, Damansara, Subang and KL. Tired but I have fun in the car with me :)

In that afternoon, 3 of us went to Wonder Milk at Damansara Utama. It's a great place for people like me and my besties to chit chat and take snap shots :) Thanks to my sis for lending me her DSLR.

Cupcakes bought from my besties. Taste yummy, just like what I want a cupcake to taste like not like the others where the icing is too sweet until I could feel my throat is drying up.

Lai Leng, the one who I love to bully the most :P

Hui Sien, the most mature thinking among all of us. :)

After having our lunch, it's time for our mission!! SNAP SHOTS!!

Awh, she kissed me :O

After spending 4 hours at Wonder Milk, we went to Cheras to pick up my another bestie :)
Headed to Ben's for dinner, at 1st I choosed Ben's but then we changed our mind to Chili's but at last we went to Ben's. Haha, I don really like Chili's cause for me it's very noisy.
Ben's does not accept any reservation on weekends but since i used my birthday as a excuse. The friendly waiter let me to make reservation. Wee :D

2 others besties, Angeline and Poh Yee.

Me with my Mojito, LOLS. I really look like a kid.
Between the dinner, we have cards questions game where we randomly picked a card from the box and asked each other. Haha, some questions are really ridiculous.

Huggy pillow.
I didn't really want to order the cake but the waiter keep insist me to order because it's my day so I just ordered a piece. Rocky Road, yummy :)

After dinner, we went to Haagen Dazs for their fondue as dessert. The truth, all of us are still bloated with our dinner but we still went for it. LOLS

Really had a great time on that day, thanks to my besties for everything :) Love all of u very muchie.
I got to say, I love being the baby among them. They are really my angels that take care of me all the time.

Wee!! I got a Diana F+ Zebra from my sis, thank you sister Lau :). Now I have a Zebra Diana and Zebra Golden Half. Zebra all the way!!!


Thursday, April 12, 2012

Life Goes On

Time wouldn't stop for anybody nor anything. Anything that had happen, it have its own reason. Some tried to solve it, some just hid it behind them but it would keep chasing your paces until you find a solution. Even though that's not the best solution but at least it ended. :)
At last, I felt empty and lighter. I don have to answer questions nor having anything it my mind.

Cut my hair again. Trying to change my lifestyle and get anything I want. Can't wait to spend my 20th birthday this Saturday but no idea where are we heading. I guess this would be an adventure. Will update soon.


Sunday, April 8, 2012


I'm such a failure in relationship.

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

Love Triangle

Unfortunately, I really don have time for love. My working life is so damn pack. Wake up, get ready, work, get ready to sleep after return from work. It's like a lifeless routine.

I have totally forgotten about u. It's like we are not even together anymore. I don even know how could this happen, maybe I'm really not a long distance relationship person.

Depressing and stressing about my work and love life.