Me, Mandy

Despite after so much I have gone through, I always wonder who am i? Who I prefer to be? The emo me or the cheerful me that people always thought I am. I never told my BIGGEST secret to anyone even my gfs. I'm so stuck in my past that I could not moved on which lead me became emo and putting the blame on myself.

So far I still haven't know who am i, still figuring out even though I'm 19 now. I wonder why Gods always made humans feels bad when they can't have something they want. It's like a 10% chance out of 100% you will get what you want. My friend told me, in the world nothing is perfect, nobody can be perfect. But all I want is an entire life time of happiness, impossible to achieve?

I learn that sometimes somethings you can't choose, it just had to be that way. Either you walk through the pain and wait for miracle to happen or you leave and be in pain.

THE END~~