我很想

All of sudden, just an hour. Everything just have been washed away and changed like tsunami.

I miss all of your sudden unexpected action. Your *miss you very much*, *take care* *don work too hard* text, your warm hug, your sudden kiss. Everything.

All i got from you is good bye. I know I could not keep this for a long period but I really love you so much. I don blame you for anything because this is a path where I choose to walk and I'm happy with it.

THE END~~

Goals

Since now I'm already 20, I guess it's time to set my goals for my future :)

1. Be someone important. 

2. Get my own themed cafe before 35 * I already plan how I wanted it to be :D *

3. Buy a car before I'm 28

4. Buy a house before 30 

5. Get married between 26-30 * Main reason or whatever reason would not be because I'm pregnant * 

THE END~~ 

Control Freaks

I don understand why some peoples like to control their partner so tight? Day and night calling texting asking where they are and who are they with, what the hell.... It's worst than parents.

Some of them even kept logging in their partner's FB account and check. Check their phone. Seriously, even if their partner give u their password account, they should not miss used it. Control freaks always thought what they did was right and their reason is because they love their partner too much but on their partner's side, they felt like they been guarded and gasping for air. This does not do any good to any relationship, it just created a distance between each other.

Yes, I understand why control freaks did all these because they care but it's too much. Nobody can stand these kind of treatment.

THE END~~

Wish or Want

Earlier, I just wished I could spend some time with you before everything tumbles down. I never thought what will it be in the future, I'm just happy with the way we are. Teasing each other around and being happy together, that's all in my mind. I could not understand why I could just smile or laugh like a fool by just looking at you. I just love the current me, thanks to you.

After few days, I felt I'm being more selfish. I don want to wish anymore, I want you all myself. I want to be that girl. I really want you so much but I just can't tell you that because I know if I start that topic, either I would lose you forever or my wish will be granted. I can't afford to lose you anymore after so many times. So I just kept everything to myself. 

I WANT YOU!!

THE END~~

怕

There's a lot of things I'm afraid of.
Especially the truth, I never wanted to know what's the truth because I'm afraid I can't handle it.

So I always run away from it and put it behind me like I never heard of it before. I felt I'm much more happier when I live in lies. I wished I could live in my dreams where everything is just in the way I wanted.

For now, I want to have someone that I love and not just because he love me and care me a lot. :)

THE END~~